Dear Scale, I hate you.

Sigh, okay so it's not the scale's fault that the number has gone up and up lately.  It's mine, sigh again.

I have never been thin and probably never will be (so positive I know), but I have to stop letting that scale go up at least.  And ya...go down several too.

After having kids I do think about it differently though, it's more about my health and not as much about my appearance.  Well, it is about my appearance too, I mean I am a woman and I do own mirrors. Duh.

But I want to make sure I am setting a good example for my kids, so maybe they won't even have to deal with weight issues.  I also want to make sure I am around a long, long time to be their mom and that I am in good enough shape to run around at the park and keep up with them as they grow.

So what's the answer?

Eat better and move more.  Duh.

But why don't I do that?  Why do I make excuses for myself?  In the end I don't do myself any favors by eating that burger or choosing a diet soda over water.

So why do I do it?

I don't know.  But I need to at least acknowledge that's it's happening so maybe I can make some better choices.

I have tried several diets.  Shakes, meal delivery, Weight Watchers, no carbs, no sugar.  And yes I had results with all of them to some degree.  But I always gained the weight back, and more.  So the answer has to be a lifestyle change.  That's the only way.  Sigh, so not fun.

I will drink only water, not buy any "Crap" food and yes...move more.  That doesn't sound so hard, right?  I need to do this.  Now.

Wish me luck!